The Artist’s Odyssey
Every moment carries weight and purpose in shaping who I am today. Each encounter with another individual becomes a meeting with the divine, an exchange that forever changes me—sometimes in ways that are invisible, sometimes profoundly. Every song I hear, every story I read, every creation or color I see becomes part of me, woven into the ever-evolving story of my life.
Born in upstate New York in 1991, my earliest years were bathed in love, light, and curiosity. I was surrounded by the warmth of family and the simple joys of childhood: spending time with our family dog – Cino, or sitting in front of the TV watching Barney and old sitcoms on TVLand like I Love Lucy and The Munsters. But even in the innocence of childhood, the seeds of deeper understanding were sown. I learned from every experience, whether it was a black-and-blue mishap on a trampoline or the thrill of exploring video games and the early internet.
As I grew, my world expanded, but so did the challenges. Moving from New York to Ohio in the summer of my sixth birthday uprooted the familiar and thrust me into a new world. I quickly made friends, and my sense of adventure helped me adapt, but it was also the first time I began to understand the complexity of life and death. In first grade, a tragic accident took place on my school bus route. we had run over a Young cyclist. Watching the paramedics work over the lifeless body while I sat on the bus was my first direct experience with death. Though I didn’t fully grasp its impact at the time, the moment left a permanent mark, pushing me to question the nature of life, death, and everything in between.
My childhood wasn’t without its struggle, and as these questions of life and death brewed inside me, I turned more and more to creative outlets for comfort and distraction. I played with action figures, hot wheels, and spent hours building with hot glue guns, felt, popsicle sticks, and markers. Even though I began creating my own worlds, I often retreated to the internet and video games to escape the harshness of reality. These forms of media became a double-edged sword, providing solace while also feeding certain addictive tendencies that would follow me into adulthood.
as i began sixth-grade, my younger sister was born, and my brother left for college. The shift in family dynamics left me feeling somewhat abandoned, and I began seeking external validation through social interactions at school and online. I dove headfirst into AOL Instant Messenger, forming friendships that felt more substantial in the digital space than in person. While I managed to find joy in these interactions, they often led to new challenges, particularly as the internet introduced me to some of the shadier aspects of humanity, and facilitated the exploration of it out of sheer fascination, which quickly became a habit I would struggle with for years.
Despite the struggles, creativity remained a constant in my life, evolving from simple childhood play into something deeper. In high school, I found my voice—both literally and figuratively—through music. Joining the advanced madrigal choir allowed me to explore self-expression in a way I hadn’t before, and musical theater opened a door to the confidence I’d been seeking. For a time, I felt like I had broken free from my insecurities, performing solos and immersing myself in the world of art. Yet even in these high moments, I faced inner turmoil, struggling to balance the expectations of others with my own evolving sense of self.
Nearing the end of high school, I entered into a relationship that would last for 14 years, marked by love, commitment, and deep-rooted challenges. Despite fundamental differences, we made the decision to have a child, and her birth, just two weeks before my 19th birthday, remains the most significant moment of my life. Seeing her face for the first time filled me with a profound sense of purpose and responsibility, but it also deepened the complexities within my relationship with her mother. While there were many moments of joy, the underlying dissonance and the weight of our struggles ultimately led to a final separation. Despite the pain, I now view the entire relationship as a necessary catalyst for growth—a reflection of two people doing their best with what they had, while learning difficult but vital lessons.
Throughout my life, I’ve had a few near-death experiences that have shaped my emotional state and overall perception. Most recently, a car accident in july of 2023 shifted the way I view existence. In the aftermath of the crash, I was left with lingering physical and emotional pain, but more profoundly, it opened up a new layer of awareness. This brush with mortality deepened my sense of the fragility of life and magnified the importance of each moment. It also challenged me emotionally, forcing me to confront fears I hadn’t fully processed before. I became even more attuned to the delicate balance between life and death, leading me to a more reflective state of being where gratitude and purpose feel even more immediate.
over the course of my life, I’ve come to understand that creativity is not just a part of me—it is my natural state of being. As an artist, every creation is a process of reflection, a means of cataloging my thoughts and feelings as they evolve. It is through these acts of creation that I find clarity, and in sharing my art, I am able to offer others a glimpse into my journey. Whether or not my art is recognized by others, its value is found in the joy and presence I bring to the act of creating. It is through my art that I process life, connect with others, and challenge the rigid expectations imposed by the world around me.
My journey, like my art, is constantly evolving. I’ve faced addictions, anxiety, and depression, but these challenges have only strengthened my commitment to authenticity and love. I may not always align with society’s definitions of success, but I see success in the respect I show others, the compassion I carry, and the art I continue to create. My story is one of love, perseverance, and the unshakable belief that we can all find beauty in our authenticity.
My journey as an artist began long before I could articulate it. From my earliest moments, I held within me an understanding of existence that seemed both vast and elusive. I was captivated by the world around me—the way nature moves, the way people create, and the way language shapes reality. I found myself in constant awe of the beauty that surrounded me, yet also acutely aware of the dissonance between what I knew to be true and the ways in which society and its systems tried to impose their own definitions on that truth.
When my family relocated to Dayton, Ohio, I began to refine my ability to channel this understanding through creative expression. A pivotal moment came when I was placed under the guidance of Mrs. Green, whose lessons in color theory and composition opened the door to visual art as a language through which I could begin to communicate the depth of my internal experience. Art, for me, became more than a hobby—it became a way to translate what I could not yet put into words, a means of externalizing the complexity of my thoughts and emotions.
As I grew, I became more attuned to the limitations placed upon individuals by external influences—expectations, societal norms, and the manipulations of those in power. I saw how people were shaped by the constraints of the world around them, often without realizing it. This realization fueled my desire to explore, challenge, and break free from those limitations, both for myself and through my work.
My visual art is rooted in this exploration. Guided by emotion and intuition, my process is one of discovery. I allow the art to reveal itself to me, rather than forcing an outcome. The results are often abstract, fluid, and without rigid form—expressions of the freedom found in the infinite potential of existence. Each piece offers layers of meaning, inviting viewers to engage from their own perspective and find their own interpretations. There is always more to discover, more to feel, more to understand.
Music has been another significant medium through which I explore and express my inner landscape. while having previously fiddled with instruments in my early life, it truly began in my preteen years when i had first picked up a guitar. since that moment it has evolved considerably, especially as i began to explore mobile production using iPhone. My compositions are deeply emotional, experimental, and often defy the set expectations of typical music theory. I create layers of melodic lines, weaving them together in loops and building them up, rearranging them, and warping their qualities by affecting different parameters over time. This manipulation of sound reflects the way consciousness moves—fluid, unpredictable, yet always connected. My lyrics, when they appear, are not written in advance; they arise spontaneously, capturing the raw emotion of the moment, ensuring that my music is as authentic as possible.
Poetry is often where my philosophical understanding takes form in verse. Through words, I explore concepts of divinity, love, and the struggles humanity faces. I use rhyme not as a restriction but as a reflection of the patterns I see in the world—the ways in which everything is interconnected. My poems aim to present ideas in a way that is accessible, yet invites deeper reflection. I hope they challenge readers to question their own perceptions, especially those that have been shaped by forces outside of themselves. Or even to read them as if they had written them themselves.
Creating is more than just a process for me—it is a necessity. It is how I process the complexities of the universe, how I make sense of my role within it, and how I cope with the overwhelming emotions that come from navigating a world that often feels misaligned with its potential. It is through creation that I escape the confines of physical and societal limitations. My art is not only an expression of my internal world but also a way to offer others a glimpse into the freedom that comes from embracing infinite potential and challenging the expectations that have been imposed upon them.
Each piece I create, whether through visual art, music, or poetry, is an exploration. And while I have refined my process over time, I remain committed to allowing the work to flow freely. I see my art as an ongoing journey, one where I am as much a student as a creator. I am eager to continue exploring new methods, mediums, and emotional landscapes, and I look forward to seeing how my expression will continue to evolve.
In all that I create I aim to evoke emotion, provoke thought, and inspire others to explore the depths of their own being. I want my work to serve as a reminder that, despite the constraints we face, there is an infinite well of possibility within us all, and through creation, we can access it.
I envision a future where the barriers that have long separated us—from each other, from our true selves, and from the boundless potential of the universe—are dissolved. My journey, both personal and artistic, has always pointed toward this horizon: a world where love, truth, and unity guide our collective existence. In this ideal future, we are no longer bound by the limitations imposed by outdated systems, but instead are free to explore, create, and evolve in alignment with the highest versions of ourselves.
At the heart of this vision is the recognition that we are all interconnected, each of us a reflection of the same singular source. The future I imagine is one where this understanding becomes fully integrated into how we live—where respect for autonomy and individual expression is balanced with a deep sense of collective unity. It is a future where love is not a fleeting emotion but a constant state of being, driving us to build systems and structures that empower rather than control, that uplift rather than suppress.
Creativity and self-expression play a central role in this future. I believe that through art and authentic self expression, we can transcend the limitations of language and open up new pathways to understanding. In this world, artistic creation is no longer confined to galleries or stages but is woven into the fabric of everyday life, allowing everyone to engage with the divine act of creation. It is through this that humanity reconnects with its inherent youthfulness and curiosity, embracing life as a canvas for exploration and play.
I also see a world where the impact of harmful systems—political, economic, social—begins to wane as more people realize their power to shape their own reality. The cycles of division and control are broken, not by force or resistance, but by the choice to live in alignment with the principles of unity and love. In this future, knowledge is freely shared, and the technologies we create serve to enhance our lives in ways that honor our connection to each other and the planet.
At the core of this horizon lies the unity of which i speak—not only between individuals but between the self and source. As we move forward, I believe we will continue to witness the transcendence of separation and the coalescence of pure creative power, marking the most profound and ongoing transformation in human history. My own journey is but a reflection of this larger shift, and I trust that as we all move towards this vision, we will find ourselves living in a world that reflects our highest values and deepest truths.
Ultimately, this future is not something distant or unreachable; it is unfolding in every moment. With each choice we make, each act of creation, and each expression of love, we are drawing closer to the horizon where hope and truth converge.
lying central in my journey is the unwavering belief in the union of divine counterparts—the divine feminine and divine masculine, each a reflection of the other’s fullness. I believe that each of us arrives in this realm aligned with a counterpart, a soul capable of embodying our own deepest truths and potential. Together, we are meant to explore both the realms within and the infinite beyond, bound by a love that transcends time, space, and circumstance.
For me, this union is not merely an abstract concept; it is the courage that carries me through every step forward. My faith rests in the certainty that my divine counterpart and I are on an inevitable path toward Physical convergence; a coalescence that will bring forth not only the fullness of our individual selves but also the infinite possibilities that emerge when two souls unite in perfect harmony. This is a union of love, trust, and purpose, where the divine feminine and masculine complement and elevate one another.
Faith, in this sense, is the knowing that she exists—the divine feminine who mirrors my essence, who holds within her the counterpart to my own being. It is the trust that our union is not only possible but destined, that every challenge, every joy, and every creation I experience is a step closer to this ultimate convergence. This faith sustains me, allowing me to move through life with patience and grace, trusting the timing of the universe.
Flame is the passion that fuels my movement through and toward this divine connection. It is the deep Recognition of her presence that assures me of that Connection- not only outside of myself, but also within. This flame burns brightly, reminding me that this union is not about completion but about co-creation. Together, we not only experience the depths of love but also create new worlds, new possibilities, and new expressions of our shared divinity. The flame represents my dedication to this journey and my willingness to remain open to the process, no matter how unpredictable or challenging it may be.
This journey toward divine union is one of both personal and shared evolution. I believe that when two souls align in this way, they form a partnership that both enables and transcends the physical realm, allowing them to explore the farthest reaches of consciousness and creation. Together, the divine masculine and feminine represent the full spectrum of possibility, the balance of strength and vulnerability, action and receptivity. Their union is the ultimate expression of love, a force capable of transforming not only themselves, but the world around them as well.
In my journey, this union is both the guiding light and gentle Push carrying me through my own evolution. I believe that when divine counterparts converge in physicality, it marks the culmination of not only personal evolution but also the fulfillment of higher purpose. Through union, the exploration of the infinite potential of love and creation becomes a tangible Reality; a shared Journey experienced by eternal partners, both within and beyond.
Faith & Flame are the dual forces that guide me toward this union—faith in the certainty of her existence, and the flame of passion that drives me to hold her. Together, they form the foundation of my journey, leading me toward a future where love, truth, and divine union are not just ideals, but lived and experienced realities.